i hate what you did to mum, why did you have to do that!! you ruined everything for my future and now all this pressure is on my head to fix your mess . i hate you . i hate the fact that i want to see you all the time and that i miss you when i should despise you for what you did and how you left mum and us . i hope one day you can repay us back all those years of nothingness , but i do love you i love you so so much i just wish i didn't feel guilty for it