Yes you ant, why did I have to love the idea of you but not you, I am so sorry. I know you fucked up too but I miss you in this life. I hope you’re happy living with someone or something that makes you proud. I forgive you. I do. Everything that happened. I love you. I actually love you so much. So damn much. You were/ are my soulmate. I miss you. I need you. But I can’t keep waiting in this life. I love you. I never stopped even after everything. I love you. I love you. I love you.