i love u so much and i hate u bcs u love me and u deserve a better person not me, i m a bad person i don t deserve u or everything u do for me, i m sorry i m numb but i m sure i love u even i don t feel it, i don t feel butterflies when i see u and i want to feel more things but i can t and idk why and i m sorry i hurt u and use u and i can t tell u those things