Unsent Messages

I remember meeting you in middle school. We started off slow but our friendship blossomed into something I never could have imagined. Our friendship was honestly on and off. But when it was on, it was some of the happiest times of my whole life. And when it was off, I felt so lonely. I had a crush on you since middle school but I never really fell for you until high school. After I figured out my feelings for you, you were dating someone else. It was saddening for me since you and the your boyfriend were both my great friends. Ultimately I just accepted it because you were happy, and that's all that really mattered to me. After you two broke up, you went through some things and never really opened up to me about it. I thought I was extremely important to you, but I guess I was giving myself too much credit. My feelings never disappeared during that whole ordeal. It wasn't until the following year that I realized I was really in love with you. Everytime I saw you, I'd feel a burst of joy. I would sometimes think about you at night before I went to sleep. But then late into year, I had a realization. You would never see me in the same light I saw you. I went through a rather empty period of time in my life because of this. I did come to an acceptance though. Just when I thought I was over it and I could interact with you without thinking about any feelings, it came back. Once again, my love for you was reignited. I wanted to tell you so bad, and I just wanted a chance. Almost as quickly as the love came, it disappeared. We don't text on the regular anymore. The only time we interact is when it's part of our friend group. You have a boyfriend now and you seem very happy. As much as it hurts me, I'm happy for you. Maybe one day I can fully move on. Until that day comes, you were my only love. The only person I truly felt like I could spend the rest of my days with. I hope you live your best life. I love you.