Unsent Messages

man I’m so in love with u I can’t go 4 minutes without thinking abt u (
Fr, I timed it) and all I wanna do is tell u how absolutely fucking beautiful u are and cuddle u and be there for u when ur having nightmares or when u can’t sleep at night even tho I’m a super sleepy person, I’d stay up till u fell asleep in my arms watching avatar. I have no idea how to tell you but I really realllllly like you. You’re on my mind 25/8 (get it? Like 24/7 but more) I’ve never felt this strong abt anything before. I want you so fucking bad. I mean I’m pretty sure u like girls too but just in case, I’m too pussy to tell you. Yknow that and the fact that I don’t want to ruin or change our friendship bc I feel like that would kill me hahahaha haha. No but fr my heart can’t take that. Look, all I’m saying is that I’d love to be there for you. In more ways than I already am. I just want to hold you and tell you it’ll be okay. Ik u hate thunderstorms bc they scare u but those are my absolute fucking favourite. I swear to god, one day I’m gonna set up a nice picnic on my deck (good vibes) and we're gonna sit there and talk to the lightning and I’ll be there if u get scared and I’ll keep you safe. All I want is to make you feel better. I want you to know how much you mean to me and even tho u think ur unattractive I think the absolute fucking world of you and I just want you to know how beautiful you are. Like not even just physically (even tho I’d love to just stare at u for hours [in a not creepy way I swear]) but mentally too. I could lay w you under the stars talking for hours and hours and hours. I wish nights were longer for that exact reason. I just want to tell you how perfect you are. I just want to make you happy like you make me. It’s been like a year and these thoughts clearly aren’t going anywhere. Ik you’re a best friend, and relationships this early in highschool don’t really last so I mean, I’m too scared to say anything. I just don’t wanna freak you out. I’m sorry :):