is it weird that i still check up on you every once in a while? i wonder if you do the same. i feel like a crazy person, but i always just want to make sure you're okay. i don't feel like i'm in any position to make you happy because i feel like all i gave you was unpleasant feelings. so, when i see you unhappy, i always wish that i could reach out, but i'm too cowardly. i can only hope that you know i always want you to be happy.