last one because I have done WAY too many of these tonight. I dont know. I read the messages under my name and tonight was the first night that I saw any of them. I cant say any of them were truly from you I guess but its almost like there were a bunch that I could hear your voice in , or were too similar to us and whats happened that I did think it was you. Well, I just found a very very long one. that one hurt the very most to read. I dont know if you look under your own name or if all of this , you , these if its all wishful thinking but if you do read this im sorry for what I put you through and I am so glad that you are okay and now im realizing even more things now than before and im crying at this point. wow.