Hearing your voice today brought me to tears. I’m sorry you’re going through so much. I wish I could be there for you even though I know that’s not what you want. I really miss you, and everywhere I go something reminds me of you. You never leave my mind and I’m don’t think you ever will. I wanted to give you the whole fucking world but it still wasn’t enough. I’m sorry I was so shy. I’ve been working on that. I hope you would be proud of me for that. You changed my life forever, and I just wish you were back in it. I wish I could spend my time with you. I know you have a lot of time since you quit your job, but I know it’s hard for you to find motivation for much right now. Anyway if you see this I hope you’re doing good. Maybe consider calling me even if I can’t be anything more than a friend. I just want to be there:(