Unsent Messages

hi, you were my first proper love since year 4 up until now. i have decided to let you roam free. you have roamed my mind for many years, i have opened a door in my head now. you can walk out, i accept our mutual love. except the love is as friends. i will forever love you, hold a special place in my heart but i think that if i let you go and untie my ropes connected to you, we can both find happiness. maybe we are soulmates, if we are we will meet again and rekindle what we felt back then. you might not feel the same but i have felt this way since forever. you may have stopped in year seven. i know i messed up and you wouldn't forgive me but you said it didn't matter anymore and i was fine with that. at least i thought. my feelings arose back and i loved being around you but you don't feel the same and never will. as i said before if we need each other, we will meet again but for now i have now cut off those red ropes filled love. and the ends are loose just incase. my family loved you and that always encouraged me. i think peer pressure was very apparent then and is now. once i had stopped speaking about you, my true feelings were finally apparent to me. finally. i loved you, you were a crush. i didn't expect to cry over you as much as i had. its crazy how much power someone has over you. your mind. they can shut it or open it up. i think i need to hold my own power and take it away from you. as much as i will be here. i don't wish to. i will see you in class and enjoy your company but i don't like you anymore. thank you for making me feel loved. i appreciate you and everything you have ever done.