Unsent Messages

there are times where i do think about you, wondering how you’re doing. you’re definitely happier, no doubt about it. we’ve both moved on, but i miss you sometimes. you definitely don’t miss me though. i know we never dated, i only had the biggest crush on you. but, whether you felt the same way or not, you’re my first love because i literally wanted to marry you. every single time you texted me, my stomach would get butterflies and i would freak out in my room doing a little happy dance. even though we barely saw each other, and we never facetimed, our connection was real, whether you believe it or not. i always played scenarios in my head on going my first date with you, you being my first kiss, all of it. even though you stopped talking to me first, i let my emotions get in the way and i betrayed you by telling her. i’m still so sorry. and i know you want nothing to do with me, i seriously don’t blame you. but, i have morals, i don’t defend liars. yeah it wasn’t my place but who else was she gonna find out from? you were never going to tell her. i know you, well knew you. i just wish you the best, and hopefully we cross paths again.