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i liked u from the first time i saw u looking at me with those piercing blue eyes. i never seen anything quite like them. they are the most beautiful eyes i've seen. u had longer hair back then. it looked like an ocean full of brunette waves. it seemed so fluffy. and then later when u stood up to get a glue stick, i saw how tall u were. i know everyone made fun of u because u had the size of a baby giraffe or even taller than that but i liked that about u. oh god, i liked all of u. ur smile. ur humour. ur charm. ur touch. ur laugh. ur height. ur insecurities. every time u played with my hair. every time u hugged me. i felt so protected in ur arms. like nothing bad could happen. ur goofy personality. ur smell. ur intelligence. u. only u. i felt loved for the first time in my life. everybody said it was only butterflies but i knew that is was more than that. love. until i found out ur weren't mr. perfect anymore. u became someone else. cold. cheater. manipulator. liar. different. substance user. anger issues. u became full of darkness and anger. i know u had ur demons but i wished u loved me the way i did with u. i miss u more and more everyday. urs truly, a.