Unsent Messages

I’m sure if we had a conversation now that we’re older & mature, we would reconcile. We both made mistakes. We pushed each other away. I care about you as a friend. I told you that and I meant it. I wish you would just reach out to me. I won’t judge you. Stop being so aloof & afraid to express yourself. I pushed you away because I got scared that I was gonna end up liking you. I regret not hugging you in your car when we were in front of my house. There’s many things that I regret Eliot.. I was closed off with you too. I was very shy. I know it might’ve seem like I wasn’t interested but at that time, I had social anxiety. You have no idea how much I wanted to burst out and tell you so many cool things, but I couldn’t. I didn’t have good social skills at the time. It is due to my upbringing. Stop holding a grudge on me for something so trivial. Also, many people didn’t want to see us develop a friendship and they sabotaged it out of jealousy. Those people have personal vendettas against me for no reason. We have so much in common that it scared me. We had the potential to become very good friends and maybe even more?? But we let stupid shit get in the way & we became petty with each other. It’s so dumb man.