Unsent Messages

i know u hate me, and that ur angry. i would never hurt u on purpose. all the times me and layla talked about u she brought u up first, i simply added my side. that doesn't make what i said about u right and i know that and im sorry. but u hold grudges and i dont know why. u stay angry for no reason. i know our friendship is over, even though i wish is wasn't. but when u said it didn't matter if we were friends or not i knew u had stopped fighting for us a long time ago, i wasn't ready to accept that. ur different now, idk why or who changed u but u arent who u were a couple months ago. whatever happened to change u is none of my business. we probably wont ever be as close as we were in august or september, and i get that. but just know after everything, i will never love someone the way i loved u, i will never care for someone the way i care for u. ill miss u, for as long as i can. u will always mean a lot to me, even in a couple years when u can barely remember my name, i will always know yours. it hurts me to accept that we no longer have anything and i wish i could go back and change things, but whats done is done. life happens, people drift, and i guess for a while i hoped we would be those friends in our 30's talking about when we were young but its fine. i get it. i love u forever, lucas.