Unsent Messages

I need to leave you before you leave me because i know exactly how it’s gonna end for me and I can’t do this to myself anymore you’re too perfect and everyone knows it I don’t even know why I thought you wanted me but i did and i convinced myself that you wanted me and I opened myself and let my feelings get the best of me and I now know not to do that again I was so stupid but maybe that’s ok because I’ll be able to grow but it sucks that I won’t be able to do it with you and I won’t be able to learn from you and be like you how I wanted maybe in the future I’ll reach that level but not now and I don’t know what to do now I know that when I leave it’ll be horrible for me because even though we haven’t known each other for that long I still fell for you too hard because of the sense of security that you gave me. Well now I know it was a mistake and I’ll be more careful next time. It hurts to have to leave you but I know it’s what’s best for me because Ill want you more tomorrow and even more the day after that. in the end i knew that you wouldn’t ever want me as much as I want you because you’re too good for me and you’ll get someone else as soon as i leave and you’re probably talking to 100 other guys that you like more than me as Im writing this out. I know what i have to do but I don’t know how, maybe I’ll just send you this but right now I don’t know what to do, I’m glad I was able to put my thoughts somewhere tho :)