Unsent Messages

I think it's great you make me pick up on things I have to work on. Sounds odd but it goes back to the beginning where I started. Seeing you, my inner thoughts, the being anxious about how I came off. The impressions. That's still insecurities. Better than I was and I already knew there's so much room to continue growing. I'm just glad you do that for me. Not just what I need to do to help myself, you gave me subtle compliments too without meaning to , the trust thing was huge for me. That you said you trusted me 100% to help you. But I'm confused. Why me after all this time? If it is just to save the money vs. going to an professional why not ask someone else? why me , ya know? Im sure it was weird to see me same as it was weird for me to see you. Difference is I didn't think you would want to ever hear my voice , see me in person. That's what your friend made it out to be. He told me so many times you couldn't care less. But you said something about my mom , what she thought about me leaving. And you were surprised she would want me to go. Subtle compliment too , unless it just had something to do with the "she's going to lose her mind while she is away" thing I was told came up and you were surprised my mom thought it was a good idea to send "a crazy girl" off on her own. I'm not sure anymore. I felt out of line for asking about who shared the gossip I shouldn't have brought up the past like that. It just slipped out because I felt comfortable at that moment and forgot the situation. I'm sorry for that. I wish I could hear your side of the story. Good and bad and gutted. Ya know? I would like to know what you thought tonight.