Unsent Messages

Well well well, we have one hell of a story dont we. Bestfriends for a year or 2, dates for a few months, and back to friends. Its been months since we broke up. Everyday I get more comfortable with the fact that you dont love me anymore. Im starting to wonder if you ever did..... You say you did but real love doesnt go away in 3 months. I mean you even admitted it yourself, it wasnt me you really wanted. You would have never dated me if you could choose again, ouch. You just wanted to have someone so you settled for me. That decision led me to some of the most painful times of my life. But dont worry, Im not holding that against you or anything. It would be unfair of me to hold a grudge because the person I love doesnt want me back. I just wish we were still as close as we used to be, you never tell me anything anymore :(. If you ever asked, I would come back to you and you know that but many times you still mess with me acting like you like me. It just blows my mind, how you can be on my mind 24/7 but i bet I dont cross yours, ever. you were the person who made me happiest, but youre also the cause of my lowest point. I wonder what it would have been like if you still loved, why wasnt I good enough for you, why wasn't I worth it. Thats a question I dont think ill ever have an answer to but thats okay. I can feel you distancing yourself from me and I feel like im losing you. I wish you luck with whoever you choose to be with next, you deserve the world, im sorry I couldn't give it to you. I chose this color because last time I asked what your favorite color was you said green(around the time of your neon phase lol), not sure if it changed