I've know Harrison since I was 8, and that means he also knew cam. so, when cam died, he told me I couldn't do anything like that, I couldn't hurt myself in any way, I couldn't kill myself, and I thought, that- that meant he wouldn't do anything like that either. I got a text from conner, the other night saying that Harrison was admitted to a hospital because he tried to kill himself from an overdose and he promised that I wouldn't do anything like that and he promised me that he wouldn't do anything like that. so when I got that text, and he broke that promise, I broke my part of the promise, and I feel bad about it, but, I don't know. I didn't know that it was bpd that made him do it but, I don't know. feels weird.