I'm sorry for making your life so hard lately and i'm sorry for pushing it too far. I wish I was a better kid and I'm sorry I'm not. You may not be the best parent, but you deserve better then me. You might blame yourself at first and it is your fault . I hope this eats you alive, I really do. Yeah I'm a shit kid, but at least I didn't force my kid to experience mental health issues at the age of 9 just because I couldn't realize that I was a fucking problem like some people. Dad has told you, my brother has told you, and now I have told you how awful of a person you are. You've ruined our lives and no I'm not being overdramatic. A kid my age shouldn't have to worry every second of the day because I'm second that if I breath to loud you'll yell at me. I'm sorry and even though I'm saying these shitty things I love you.