i want nothing more than to just have you back. not because i feel alone. it’s because there’s this big black hole in my heart. you were a part of me. i swear. you were everything. i want you. i want us. i want there to be an us. after all this time it’s still fucking you. every part of me wants to take off and drive to miami. to be with you. to love you. to show you who i am. you shine like the moon. like a city after dark. beautiful and mesmerizing. i wish you would text me or call me. and just say it was time for you to come home. i love you ellie. i always have. and i always will.