i feel almost guilty writing this, but letting you back into my life is one of the most hardest things to do. i know i swore to be here for you forever, and that we go through problems together, but speaking to you spurs up so many old feelings, feelings that aren’t supposed to be there anymore. i think a part of me will always have a soft spot for you, because you were my bestfriend. you stood up for me when no one else did. there’s a part of that believes you’re the one who got away. we would’ve been good together. i hope you’re doing okay.