I wish you would stop being so hard on yourself. You are beautiful and loved. Even if it doesn't feel like it. A lot of people care about you. I know you feel lonely sometimes but its always best to try and stay positive. You have been through a lot at a young age but you will get through it. Don't let what people tell you affect your everyday life . You are good enough, you don't need male validation in order to feel like you are worthy. Everything about you is amazing and worthy. You are a talented and amazing person.