Unsent Messages

I love you and I wish I could be with you but we’re both taken and you don’t feel the same way. I’m with someone I know I can have a good future with, who will love me unconditionally and will treat me right but fuck that. I just fucking want you. I want you so badly that it hurts like hell knowing I can’t have you. It fucking sucks loving your best friend and knowing they’ll never love you the same way. I know you want to be with her so I don’t say a word because I want you happy. If being with her is what makes you happy then shit i’ll make sure you will always be with her so I can see the joy in you. But tbh I don’t know how me and you can go through all this together and not form feelings for me. Because fuck... I caught feelings for you and have been trying to make them go away for years now but it won’t shake. I need to let you go so these feelings can go away but I can’t. It hurts too much. I also hope you never read this and know it’s me lmao. But if you do then don’t ever mention it haha. I love you.