From: ABC
To: Nat
Date: January 17, 2021, 8:32 pm
there have been so many of these that i've typed and then discarded because i dont know how to put it in words or even if you care about me in that way anymore. (also im so sick right now and im not sure if my mind is working.) but nat you are still the love of my life, every time i see a message from you or get on a call, i feel butterflies. i check my phone 10 times a day just to see if u texted. i think about you constantly. i daydream about things that we could have still done if i werent 12,500 km away. you are the single most special person in the entire world and u deserve every bit of love and happiness. the only thing im worried about is that im not able to make u as happy as other guys can. ive said this to you countless times but every day i woke up in bh i would think, how can i make nat happy today? that is the 100% truth. i love seeing you smile and i genuinely want u to feel like the beautiful girl you are. and when i say beautiful i mean it in the truest sense. some girls are hot but they dont have a personality. you nat, are hot but you also have a personality that is unmatched by anyone ive talked to before. so when i say youre beautiful i mean in every sense of who u are. 'cute' doesnt even cover it enough.
if another guy in bh is making u happier, its a bittersweet feeling for me. on one hand, its sad to see ur love go to someone else, but on the other hand that man has the privilege of making the most adorable girl in bahrain happy.
sorry i droned on and on and some parts are kinda cringey but at the end of the day thats how i feel. i really wish there were some magic words i could say that would make u understand how deeply i care for u.
p.s this marks one month since the rooftop