Unsent Messages

Falling in love at such a young age is soul destroying. There’s not one day I can go without thinking about you. One year. One whole year together. I got so attached that whenever school started again and we weren’t with eachother a lot, I realised, your the only person I can depend on. I totally forgot about myself. I slowly fell in to this pool of despair. I shouldn’t of been so dependent on you. It was never you fault. I hate that I wake up every day and remember how I ended it. It was for the best, for me. It was extremely selfish of me and I’ve recognised that. I would never say I hope we never met because this has been the best year of my life , but I wish I never got that attached to you. Cause it hurt something serious letting go. After the breakup I told myself I was going to focus on me. I convinced myself that if you went and kissed other girls, I wouldn’t care. Until you did. When I found it it completely shattered my heart. When I think about the way you kissed me and then the way you kissed those other girls. My heart filled with jealousy. That was the first time since being with you my heart broke. The biggest mistake was not cutting things off with you completely. Because not every time you become a thing with someone it breaks my heart. I know I broke your heart breaking up with you. But it broke my heart doing it. Since we have broken up, you’ve broken my heart 3 times. Getting your heart broke is the worlds worst feeling. You can’t cry or anything. You just sit there. Numb. Falling in love at a young age was a mistake. I still love you more that anyone in this world. I’m sorry