Unsent Messages

i really realllllyy miss you. you were my best friend before you were my boyfriend. i miss talking to you how we always did. it was never too serious and i feel like it flowed really well. ive dated other people to keep my mind off of u bc u moved on. i always end it bc i realize i dont have real feelings for them bc of u. we still talk a little but i wish it was more. i regret breaking up with you. i thought i didnt want a bf. i was happy for a little but this year has been hard. in a perfect world i would be with you again but i dont think thats gonna happen. i dont think you feel the same but thats why this is not actually sent to anyone lmao. i want to talk to you about music again. i want you to be my drunk facetime. but now i dont even have your number. i want to hug you. im not even that affectionate of a person but i want to give you a mf hug. i dont know what the girl we do not speak of did to you but im sorry and i hope youre doing ok. i dont even know what happened. but im angry that someone hurt you. i dont think i hurt you too bad bc the breakup was mutual. i hope i didnt. but how could someone hurt you? you do absolutely nothing wrong. youre the sweetest most selfless person ive ever met. i miss you to death. but youll probably never know. i just hope you dont hate me and one day we can have what we had before. probably not. but maybe.