Unsent Messages

This isn’t anything sad and gross like I always write but I feel like it’s been a while since I’ve told you how much I appreciate you. It’s been a few years actually. Things aren’t the same as they used to be and we still have some things to talk about but I just hope you know I still care about you a lot. Just as much as I did those few years ago. You’re a good friend and I don’t know how you deal with me because I’m definitely not a great friend; I’m a pretty shit one actually. I don’t know how you ever dealt with me at all to be honest but I appreciate it. You’re just a really good person and I like being around you (even though it’s been a while) and I hope you know you can always talk to me if you need anything. I don’t care how long it’s been. Our friendship is kinda complicated; we were never really friends and then somehow 6th grade happened and we talked more and then somehow 8TH GRADE happened and then we stopped talking for a while and now even though we don’t talk nearly as much as we used to, we’re kind of on speaking terms?? Kind of not?? I don’t know what happened but I’m glad we still talk at all. It makes me sad because I wish things were still like they used to be but things just happen and people change. I get it, it just kinda sucks. But yeahhhh I just really value our friendship and there’s so many things you know about me that nobody else does and I’m just glad you were there to listen when I needed someone to talk to. I just needed to write this to you even if I’m not really writing it TO YOU but screaming it out into the void helps a little. Alright I’m done, writing this makes me wanna cry