Unsent Messages

i watched you slowly fade away, while you got meaner, and meaner. you cared less and loved less and at the very last point you even admitted to not loving or caring for me anymore, no matter how hard you tried you said you couldnt. and you were tired of pretending so you didnt want me in your life anymore. you tossed me out as a bestfriend for some girl. after staying on the phone for hours, days, and even weeks, going through the rough and dark time together including us not wanting to be alive anymore, through you figuring yourself out somewhat, through us breaking up and me getting in a toxic relationship to try and get over you because i knew i was head over heels in love with you and there was no changing that, to you telling me that you wanted me back after our break up because you couldnt do it without me, to us drifting apart, not calling anymore because you were too busy with your new girl and school and horse riding, and to you blocking me on everything because i cared and loved for you too much, and becausd you hurt me too much and i was too good of a person and "needed to forget you". you cheated, lied, lead me on for six months almost seven, just for a three week relationship that made me hate myself more and more everysingle day and then finding out you cheated and lied about the girl you fucking promised was a family friend, then you met her on yubo, and then you guys went to school together, so, many, lies. the only time i lied was when i told you i was doing home work for school. i wasnt. i was shopping for all those birthday presents for you. i was working and doing chores to get money to come see you. after every single fucking thing i did for you, you fucking blocked me. i loved you with my whole heart. i still do and always will and i will never stop. but why did you