From: ABC
To: iarah
Date: December 11, 2020, 10:20 am
i guess i don’t really know how to feel because i obviously still love you, like 1 year of love doesn’t just go away but i also know i have to move on like i have a feeling you moved on and i am happy for you but also there is this bitterness that i can’t kiss you or hold you, not that you would want me to hold you anymore but i guess i still want to be held by you. i know someone else is bringing you the joy i brought to you at some point. i feel like i hurt you quite a bit but i also got hurt and i want to say fuck you to you but what would that do? nothing. absolutely nothing. because i am not mad or angry at you rather i am upset at everything that happened. you did nothing wrong. young love is hard and i know you probably are not my forever but i did hope that when we started dating that you would be my forever. it’s funny how i am still thinking about you and writing to you. it’s funny how i still think about i just wanted a letter. how hard was it for you to send a letter. how hard was it for you to write me a letter before you left. well i guess it was hard because i never got one. so now i wonder if you actually ever cared.