From: ABC
To: Mattie
Date: January 17, 2021, 12:59 am
I can’t write these to you anymore. I can’t write letters in my journal to you anymore. I see now that I can’t hold out hope like I have been these past couple weeks. I can’t apologize enough to you for letting my imagination run wild and letting our past interfere with us. I’m not able to understand the neurotic heuristic phenomenon that took over that night, but I will one day. I deeply regret ruining our relationship and causing you to close yourself off completely from me. Knowing what I’ve done to ruin your openness and your view of me has been enough to completely ruin me. I can’t forgive myself for any of it, and it just feels worse with time. I’m so sorry it went down how it did. I’m so sorry that I still miss you and think about you every waking moment. I’m so sorry we won’t have a future together.