i’ve hoped every day since i left that you’d reach out and tell me we’re back on again. every night i lose sleep.

so you were so nice and when I first met you I thought you were different but the I realized you were just like all the assholes in the world sorry not sorry bitch

I don’t feel -that- way anymore but I wish you knew I’d give you my life and realised your own self worth.

Hey, I know we are talking as just mates but I annoyingly kinda like you and I want to see where things go.

i wanted us to work out so bad. you made me feel things i've never felt before. i still have small hope we'll come back :(

Hey. I don't know where you've been, or what you've been up to. I hope your safe. I haven't told anyone this, but I think I've liked you since like 5th grade. You were my first crush, and that's so silly of me to say. But I don't think I'll ever be able to stop picturing you in my mind. I miss you Mattie.

I fall more in love with you everyday. The way your eyes light up when someone mentions your current hyperfixation. I love you

hiding our polaroids around my house so i’m not tempted to throw them all out in fits of anger and sadness

every day i lay here and wonder how it is i seemingly meant so much to you and yet you let me go so easily

i just want to write you walls of text about my days and trace your face and tell you about my new plants and how i read the books you told me about but i can’t do any of this anymore and it is killing me

i don’t know if I’m misinterpreting who these messages are to. i don’t want to be your best friend. i don’t think we were or weren’t “meant to be”, but i think we put in equal efforts to a relationship and tried and that’s what’s important to me. i can’t imagine myself without you and it hurts to hear you call me your soulmate in a friendly way. what does that even mean?

I can’t write these to you anymore. I can’t write letters in my journal to you anymore. I see now that I can’t hold out hope like I have been these past couple weeks. I can’t apologize enough to you for letting my imagination run wild and letting our past interfere with us. I’m not able to understand the neurotic heuristic phenomenon that took over that night, but I will one day. I deeply regret ruining our relationship and causing you to close yourself off completely from me. Knowing what I’ve done to ruin your openness and your view of me has been enough to completely ruin me. I can’t forgive myself for any of it, and it just feels worse with time. I’m so sorry it went down how it did. I’m so sorry that I still miss you and think about you every waking moment. I’m so sorry we won’t have a future together.

i’d inflict any amount of pain and go through it all over again if it meant i could still be with you.

i’m sorry we didn’t know how to be what each other needed. having a sister was nice <3

I dream about those eyes of yours 24/7, that pretty shade of green, and your smile

i'd come back if you'd just call, little bug.

I still think our story isn't over angel

Am I crazy or are you writing them abt me dolly

I wish we worked out. You were my everything. I miss you more than words could ever express

i miss you. its been almost 2 years since we last talked. you just..disappeared. imy bubba.

sitting on the porch hoping
you’ll pass by

I lied. I didn’t see you in the street yesterday. I just wanted an excuse to talk to you. I love you

i’m sorry for everything.

I look at you the way I look at sunsets, you heal my inner child.

my poems about you write themselves. my heart still aches for you.

youre my favorite. dont ever think otherwise

I hope one day you come back around. I miss you.

I miss you so much baby

I still haven't finished Dexter. I hope we can finish it together someday.

I still check on your posts daily to see if your okay. Just how could you

I think that will haunt me for a while and I'm worried for when I see you again :(

I know you don’t care but can we please talk one more time? I need closure so I can let go of you

I still want the life we talked about together… I love you, I can’t forget you

I still dream about you.

i wish i never hurt you…i’m sorry for everything, little bug

I miss when you were in love with me. I would do anything to get your love back.

i feel like im annoying you all the time. i love you

:3

I love you so much my precious babyy

You are still the women I want to spend my life with.. I’m sorry I still loves you

even after you left like that i’m still here , im still in love with you. i’m here anytime, always.

you make me grateful i left boston, or else i would have never met you <3

I still have the letters and the movie ticket…
Maybe one day

Hey I really hope you know I've had a huge crush on you for like ever and I really miss you<3

I still like you but I’m done chasing you.

I can’t express how grateful I am to call u friend. u taught me how to be confident and soft again.

i know you don’t care about me at all , but i just wanted to say i love you.