Unsent Messages

I don't know if you're reading this somewhere but I really hope you are. Alex I really miss you. I'm never going to forget you. You're the closest thing I had to a relationship and I wouldn't change that for the world. People told me it was stupid to love you and although that could've been true, I did anyways. You left me alone in this bitch of an Earth and you expect me to be okay? You think I'm going to survive without you by my side? I finally felt loved when you told me that you liked me. I felt like I mattered to someone. I didn't care that I was just a rebound from my best friend. I didn't care because I had someone to love me and that was all I needed. But you left. You left me alone without even thinking about what I'd have to experience without you. I'm hanging on by a thread Alex and you left me alone. I miss you so much but I'm so mad at you for leaving me alone. Everytime I hear something that reminds me of you, I break down and I can't help but remembering you and the way you could always make me smile after the worst of days. I love you and I miss you Alex.