Unsent Messages

Here I am again writing on this hoping you will come across this. Because my pride just wouldn't let me reach out to you . I hate that I can't see the color red without thinking of you. I often think of us and realize it was just another case of right person wrong time, because I just know we would be so powerful together. I love the kind of person I become when I am around you. You motivate me , the way you carry yourself is what stood out the moment I met you. I have never experienced love till now I think. I just hate the way you disappear and come back months later , I hate that I still allow you back into my life knowing you're just destined to leave. I hate that you make me feel this way because I know I shouldn't . And at the end of the day I will truly never know how you feel. But I am holding on to the slightest bit of hope at this point, but I can only hang on for so long. Before I decide to fully move on so Nic, please do something I really want you in my life. before it is truly too late :p