i’m not ready for you to be disappointed in me, but i can’t do this anymore. i’m so sick of school and exams and the constant stress and pressure you put on me. i’m sure you don’t mean to, but constantly telling me how much you’ve sacrificed to make sure i have a good education makes me feel so guilty. because what if i do bad in my exams? what if i fail all of them? you say you’re so proud of me but i feel like as a person i don’t exist. i feel like i’m nothing more than my academic achievements. and when i lose those, i will be nothing. there’s so much riding on these next few weeks but i’m so burnt out i don’t care anymore. i just want to be carefree for once in my life.

i’m edging towards the edge of a cliff, mum, and i don’t know if i’ll survive the fall.