From: ABC
To: carter
Date: January 8, 2021, 6:08 am
I'm really sorry Carter. I love you and I know I love you because it's been 3 years since I've seen you and I still think about you and how I would feel if I ever saw you again. I'm so sorry I ruined everything but in a way I'm not because I feel like it came back to bite me in the ass :/ lols... But I wish I didn't do it. One of my biggest wishes is to go back in time and fix it and fix us. It's over now though. I guess it's over. It's still hard. I used to be in so much pain and I felt like you were ok. I wish I knew what you thought of me. I wish I hadn't done it. You were my first love and I fucked it up. You probably never loved me, and it's so batshit fucking crazy that I associate so much feelings with a person who probably never ever had the same type for me. Wow. mindfuck.