Unsent Messages

hey,
It's been over a year now since I wrote one of these. I've changed a lot, maybe you have too. After everything, I think I can say I've moved on. A part of me will always love you. But you hurt me in a way I never imagined you would. it's ok though you were a well-learned lesson. I met this new guy which I mean you know about and he makes me happy. I don't think I'd mind too much having a future with him. We're so young though and what about school ugh commitment issues right. But you'd like him I swear you would. I like him a lot I think he's made me change a lot too for the better. I've realized though I'm really paranoid now. When he turns away his phone, I get nervous. Ik he wouldn't do anything, but that's what I thought with you. It's like anytime he does anything out of the ordinary, I can't help but think. My head won't let it rest, it's really tiring. I don't want to ruin it again. maybe you can relate to that now idk.
Well, it was nice ranting,
bye m.
p.s. I hope your family is ok too