I know you want to be alone, so I'm going to say what I want to tell you on here. I was the shitty one. You deserve better. You're not a shitty person, we're not all perfect and that's okay. You showed me so much compassion. You cared so much. I wish I could've been better to you and given you the space you needed. You we're the first person who truly wanted to know me. I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you and I'm going to take the time to work on bettering myself. You need this time. You need this space. I understand. But my selfishness will always hope you'll come home to me again someday. I'm truly sorry.