Unsent Messages

I deserve the truth and an apology. You didn't break up with me because of lock down. It doesn't make sense to me why ti would be that, i don't understand what went wrong or what i did wrong. You were so happy when we went for dinner for your birthday and you were so happy when i last saw you, or at least it seemed that way. What it feels like to me is that you didn't have feelings for me anymore and you didn't know how to tell me or felt too guilty to tell me. Which is probably why you did it over text, so you didn't have to face me. No one should be broken up with over a phone screen, it's unfair and quite frankly heartless. I just want the truth and then i'll never bother you again and you'll never have to hear from me again. I promise. I just want to move on and forget about this. I wish i could talk to you about this but i have a panic attack when i try to. I just don't understand why you wouldn't tell me the truth. I have been nothing but honest with you since we met, i actually think it would hurt less if you had told me the truth, and to my face. But now i'm just guessing and i don't think i'll ever have the courage to ask you why. The sad part is that i would have done anything for you, if you had just asked. I know i shouldn't have held you on a pedestal like that but i really liked you, and i thought you did too. I mean, no one has ever looked at me the way you did. But i guess i was wrong.