Unsent Messages

It's 5 in the morning and the thought of you crossed my mind. Although I cringe saying or typing your name, I figured i'll just type this message to get it off my mind. I wish I allowed things to actually happen between us. I don't know why I did it or where I wanted the connection to even go. But I'm glad things ended for a reason. You sometimes cross my mind and there's still hope in me about the connection, but I think it's for the better. For that moment, I learned things from you I'll take on in the future. so thank you. some nights I still wish you were by my side but its okay. I think i accepted it to be over and am slowly moving on because this isn't serving me in any way. I've grown and became a whole different person since October, thank you for teaching me a lot. I know you'll learn about love and more about yourself in the future. I do wish you the best because I know you can and will do big things. I believe when we are both at a point in our lives where we are okay, we will end up meeting again. I would love to see where you would be in the future. I still think of you when certain songs come on and just cringe. I think I keep listening to the same song for one day that can happen between us, and I still think I can. but I cant keep this leftover feeling in me. I cant keep checking on your social medias hoping for you to mention me in anything. its weird and unhealthy. things are better off like this. I hope you're doing good and you keep discovering more about love within yourself. I've done that, and I think I'll continue to do that from now on.