can i even hate you? i wish. it would be easier to hate you, you know. to not feel pain every time i look at you, or cry every time i think of our friendship and what it used to be. how easy it would be to just look at you and only feel hatred, and bitterness. but ig it’s not. bc even after everything you did, after everything you fucking did and ruined both of my friend groups. i still love you. and i think i prbly always will. and i hate that, but it’s true. in my dreams, we’re friends again. and things can go back to how they used to be. but i know that won’t ever happen. so i continue to sleep, and stay in my dreams, bc there is where i am happy. i love you always. idiot.