Unsent Messages

I hope you know how much you’ve broken me. I thought the relationship we had the best but boy was I wrong. I’ll never forget what you told me. Things changed, you changed. The day you told me to die , the day you told me that I only did things for attention and all that changed my perspective. I couldn’t believe what was coming out from you, my best friend. You didn’t know but I was hurting and going through things.My life was breaking apart, I realize I should have told you but I didn’t. I didn’t tell you. And i still am , you’re words still break me. A part of me blames myself for all this because maybe if u knew you wouldn’t have said all those things to me.But I can’t change that. I hate you so much. And like the words you told me “forget about me, forget about us, pretend we never met and pretend you don’t know me.” I’m trying to.