Unsent Messages

Hey nuggy, i honestly got a lot on my mind. Maybe im blowing things out of proportion bc im an over thinker, or maybe im not ig ill never really know. I was thinking about if ill tell ya about this site or not but then i started wondering if our friendship will be the same a month and a half from now, i don't say that bc I don't think we should be friends or whatever, i say it bc of how the relationship between us has changed back and forth quite a bit within this past yr. I sometimes feel like maybe you don't really want me in your life anymore .. ive felt that way with many other people but never with you, until you told me about how snapping me is starting to affect you. As you know im an insecure person when it comes to myself and needs some reassurance from time to time, so it was kinda impactful when you had told me that.. As you can see, im on the heavier side of the spectrum as far as overthinking and feeling insecure tn. You also have been saying ily a lot less, today included, idk if that was unintentional or not, (which is fine if its not unintentional, i rather things be honest and true than just saying it bc i say it or to keep me happy). You might be wondering why i don't just bring all this up to you instead of keeping it to myself, its not bc im afraid to talk to you about these kinds of things, its that i just feel like it makes me look like im nagging or being needy or something... I really hope our bond and relationship doesn't diminish within these next 43 days, so you can read all these little notes that i leave ya to read while im gone, and more importantly i hope we're just as good a friends when i come back from bmt... im gonna stop here, its getting late, its 2:49am and ive got work today. Sorry to bring down the mood, i had planned for these to be on the more positive end of the spectrum, but i just had a lot on my mind.