i'm not sure i want a relationship right now unless it is with you, you understand? i know that's super weird but, its alright to me. i live and i learn, and at some point im sure ill give up on it. i hope you get happy and I hope we stay friends for a long time, and if you ever get weirded out by my actions i swear ill drop everything and leave. i won't be a repeat of them, okay? it haunts me to think about, cuz i dont want to form some trauma for you. but i do hope we last long enough as friends as to where i can fly across the country to see you. until either of these scenarios, please don't lose our snap streak (its literally only the second one ive managed to keep so far) i love you in a lot of ways. i promise ive thought about it hard; it really is okay that you can't love me back. it is only the start of it, a puppy crush that's still hanging on. i'd tear it off if it meant helping you.