Unsent Messages

We're on a break now but this one really feels different. I don't know whether we're going to make it through this or not. I want to, I don't know if you do. I think I need to reflect on the entire relationship though, instead of just the good parts. How did we get here? I go through some of our pictures or older chats and it really makes me wonder how we got here. I want that, I really want that. I want to be able to properly open up to you and have that reciprocated. Idk if that's going to happen though. We both seem to have such different approaches to opening up. I was thinking maybe we can just have this list of questions (I found a great one too), and call weekly and get through as much as we can. Like, we'll start off and be as honest as we can be but as soon as it gets too much for even one person, we can stop and pick it up next week. Idk, in my mind having that list seems like it would help create that ground to build the trust. I'm genuinely really scared to see where this gets us. If it does end though, I hope you're able to find what you're looking for, and I hope someone makes you way happier than I ever could. If it's over, I hope you have the life you deserve but don't believe you do. You're amazing, and whoever gets to be with you, romantically or not, is incredibly lucky. I do love you, and I do hope that this is the right relationship for both of us. If it is, I'm willing to put in the effort and reach a middle ground, I don't know if we're on the same page there but I hope this break helps us each get clarity.