From: ABC
To: Andre
Date: November 16, 2020, 3:05 am
It finally happened. You finally unblocked me and honestly, it's taking everything in me to not text you right now and ask you why you did what you did. I want to call you and cuss you out and tell you everything about how you fucked me up. It's been a year and I'm still unable to trust people. It's been a year and I am still so hurt that I won't allow myself to open my heart to anyone because I am so traumatized and scared that they are going to hurt me as you did. You hurt me so bad, and the worst part of all is that I don't think you even know that you did. I just want you to know that no matter how much I try to move on, I am still stuck on you. And not in the loving way, in the way of wanting to understand. I want to understand why you did this to me. Why out of all people, you cheated on me. You decided that I was the girl to cheat on. I gave you everything, I introduced you to my entire family, I cooked, cleaned and bought you things. And I received nothing. NOTHING but hurt and trauma in the end. There are so many unspeakable things you did to me, the times you hit me and the time you threw my phone at the wall because YOU cheated on me. So many things that you did that truthfully changed me to my core. I am no longer that girl you met a year ago, I could never be her again. Because she was doing so much better in life before you came and now I am forever imprinted. There is this mark on me that you left. And because of you. I will never be the same. I want to text you, and I want to tell you everything I feel right now. But I can't because you won't give a shit, you'll gaslight me into thinking it was my fault. Which it never was, and you'll just lie. Because honestly Andre, lying is the only thing you'll ever be good at. You know how to lie like a penny in a parking lot. I hope you one day find a love that makes you feel the way I did. And I hope she tears your heart in 2 just like you did. And I hope you are so hurt that you never let it go. I hope one day you sit in the position I'm in. Crying alone, listening to our song and knowing that I was the best thing you could've ever had.