Unsent Messages

look i’m just gonna copy and paste my notes lol, why did u leave. why did u stop texting me. why did u stop even reading my texts. why did u remove me from ur close friends. why did u stop checking up on me. why did you stop saying goodnight to me. i thought i meant something to u i thought we were friends. i rlly did i thought u cared abt me. i don’t know if i did anything but if i did i’m SO SORRY i’m sorry if i’ve EVER hurted u. please know i didn’t fucking mean to do it i love you i love you SO much. if u simply don’t wanna be friends with me then idk. i tried to be a good friend. i still do. i still send u good morning and goodnight texts every day. i still text u every single day like an idiot. knowing that u won’t reply. i wish u did. i miss every talk we had. i miss when u actually cared abt me and checked on me. i miss when u would say goodnight to me every night. i miss laughing at everything u said. i miss being someone important to u. i miss being in ur close friends. i miss when u would reply to everything i sent u. i miss when u would talk with me while being in class, it was always french class. i miss when u would tell me stuff abt ur life.
i miss when we would talk literally all the time except when i was in class. i miss when we stayed up late talking. i miss when u were the reason i was alive. i miss when u checked up on me and cared abt how i was. i miss when ur response to me being sad was a paragraph and not a “aw :(“ “eat ur mum” i miss when u actually knew abt me. i miss when i would tell u every detail abt my day. i miss waking up to ur texts. i miss everything. i miss u. i literally forgot what was like talking to u. i’m so sorry for not being enough for u. i wish i was and i promise u i tried. u even ignore my comments now and it seriously hurts so bad. it hurts so bad when i write u a fucking paragraph cause u hurt urself or u relapsed on ur ed and u just ignore it. it feels like u don’t even want me to care abt u anymore. and the worst part is that i don’t even know what i did. i thought u loved me. i feel so stupid.