Unsent Messages

The moment i first knew: We were in year 5 or 6, and i was just sitting at my desk, i looked up and you had just walked into the room, and we instantly made eye contact and the biggest smile formed across your face and i felt butterflys in my stomach. Seeing you smile from then on was something i looked forward to. Everyday I hoped that we would somehow talk, or something would happen between us, but i mean we were just kids. fast forward, and I still like you. its been 5 years, but i was too afraid to tell you how i feel, and when i did i didn't even say the half of it, i said "Yeah, i like you". and you said "sorry, I don't feel the same way". Those words kind of tore me apart. I acted like it was cool, everything was fine and i didn't care one bit, but reality was i cared way too much, so so so so so so much and honestly I wish I didn't. But here it is, the message that I never sent, that I really, really wish I did. Okay look you make me happy, seeing you everyday puts a smile on my face and honestly I think you're really cool, your so chill, and nice to everyone, so friendly and positive. Don't even get me started on your smile again, and your eyes, they glow in the sun, everything about you is so perfect. At least that is what I would've said back then, all those months ago. I'm slowly getting over you, and I guess now that I am not obssesed I am starting to see the flaws in you, it's stupid to think that i'll ever be truely over you. Anyways, If you ever come on here which is probably very rare I hope you know that you broke me. It wasn'y your fault in any way whatsoever, but I think i'm ok now. I hope you're happy and that you find someone special that makes you as happy as you made me. :)