Unsent Messages

Thank you for everything, honestly you're such a great person and friend. But I haven't been so honest with you lately...I'm not doing okay. I know when you asked me if I was okay I said yes, but that's a lie. I'm doing good, I'm doing terrible. I'm in so much pain and idk how to tell you. I've been going through a depressive episode for a couple weeks now, and have been sucidal lately too. I just wish I could tell you to your face, but I don't want you to worry about me like you used too. I think I'm starting to get out of it, I mean you know how my depression is, it comes and goes. I relapsed last night...and I just wanna be able to tell you, but I don't want you to go to my mum, or tell your bf, so I'm hiding it. Maybe that's bad, but maybe it's for the better. I'm gonna try and be the "happy" friend like I used to be so you don't have to worry about me. Ily.