From: ABC
To: Ej
Date: January 15, 2021, 10:57 am
i still see ur face in my darkest moments. i hear ur voice telling me it will be okay when i'm falling apart. ur in my dreams and ur on my mind when something happens. i can't bear seeing u with someone new, it's killing me but i know that doesn't matter to u anymore. i know u want nothing to do with me and u just pretend for my own sake. i know the truth and i'm sorry i was not good enough for u but i still have something in my heart for u, even after all this time. i don't want to do this without u anymore. it's so fucking hard and i hate it. i hate it so much. everyone tells me to get rid of u but how can i when ur the one who taught me how to be okay and how to survive this? i'd give the whole world for 10 more minutes next to u. just to see u smile at me the way u used to. i miss that feeling i had whenever u were around. it always made me feel like the world was right again. u made me feel that way. i would honestly take a lifetime of sadness for 10 minutes with u by my side again. i miss u the most in this stupid cruel world
