Unsent Messages

i feel like i can't apologize enough. i knew you always felt like you weren't a priority to others, that you felt no one liked you. i wanted to change that for you, i wanted to treat you like you were my priority, to let you know that i do like you and that i am your friend. but when i left, i can only imagine that my actions confirmed your feelings for you. and i'm sorry for not thinking it through. i'm sorry for not considering your feelings, but i want to reiterate that i left to better myself in hopes that one day, we can naturally befriend each other once more. i want to be a better friend to you, and i am trying to become a better person for myself. to do that, i had to focus on myself; i am still focusing on myself. i want to love myself and become confident, but it takes a lot of willpower within myself to make it actually happen. yes, i have met new people along the way. i wish you were among them, but i'm scared that you'll think i'm hypocritical. how could i leave you then come back? sometimes, i have a lot of thoughts. sometimes, i want to tell you a lot of things, but i'm scared to.