Unsent Messages

i wish you could realize the way i overly laugh at your jokes, the way i double check my texts, the way i double guess myself. i loved you, as a friend, then we tricked each other's hearts. i'm sorry for what i put you through i really am, but i wouldn't take it back. it make me-us stronger i've changed so much, i wish i had you, i wish to spend late nights texting with you-but i won't, and most likely never will. i wish you the best, i wish you the best. this is my goodbye, for my heart to let go, to leave you on seen, i won't block you and i'll try to calm my heart so when i get a text that i don't pray it's you, i want you far away, but close enough to see you thrive, close enough to see you happy with someone else. happiness is hard to come by, you were mine, and i was yours-but no anymore. never again will i wear my heart on my sleeve. goodbye